I declare this blog reactivated!
I need to release some repressed feelings and I no longer have anyone to rant to so…here it goes.
A couple of days ago, I joined my classmates at a retreat. The retreat had adverse effects on me. I started feeling depressed and lonely. I started losing my grasp on reality. I feel extremely envious of a lot of people. This retreat amplified my bitterness from the failed Cisco competition. What happened there? I tripped at one of the most important events of my life, that was the first time I was gonna WIN at something, what did I do? I tripped right before the finish line. Now, after I see a few of the pictures from the retreat, I feel much worse. I wonder when i’ll be able to put this all behind me.
During the retreat, I wrote a letter for someone, I still have it in this computer, I don’t know if i’ll ever give it to that person. I may post the said letter here, one of these days…
1 more semester before I close this chapter of my life.
A few things I’ve learned so far…
1) don’t be thick.
2) when you see an anomaly/something odd…INVESTIGATE
3) when someone seems to like you, DO NOT DISMISS THAT PERSON, EXPLORE THAT IDEA, unless, you really don’t like that person.
4) choose friends VERY CAREFULLY AT THE START OF HIGHSCHOOL/COLLEGE, because starting over is near impossible
5) Don’t go to retreats when you are atheistic and have no close friends coming with you.